Farewell

Tamara! I've been trying to reach you ever since they took me. I know you're looking and I know you'll find me eventually but I don't know how to make it any easier. Don't think I can get on the net. I should've listened when you taught me how but now i fucked myself... Honestly I don't even think you'll recognize me if you saw me. I know I don't... Should just stick a barrel down my throat and be done with it I'm such a fucking monster. FUCK ME!!!! Gang ain't taking me back - not without a bag over my head... I got these like tractor hands and ugly as sin red eyes.
All I can think of now is your chooms who poisoned you to me, telling you not to get with a Valentino, that he'll leave you for someone else, vanish without a word... I'm gone an they'll beat their chests all justified and tell you "told you so" but couldn't be more wrong. It's driving me loco I feel like my head's gonna explode in a million pieces. I can feel the pressure building and building and building but idk when it's gonna pop